Post-op appointment....

I had my post op appointment today! I can't believe it has been almost 4 weeks since the D&C... I'm expecting AF to arrive by the end of next week!

Bad news is.... there was not enough tissue to test the baby :( I was so excited thinking I was going to know the sex of the baby and any chromosomal abnormalities he might have had... but I guess that wasn't Gods plan...

He basically said I have an unexplained case and that my next step is IVF, which I knew already. He said before that I need an SIS and DH will need a new S/A... and we are ready to go! Price is 9K for the basic plus meds. He thinks I might not need ICSI, PGD, nor assisted hatching but we will know about that after the retrieval.

I mentioned him about the natural killer cells and he said that there is inconclusive studies on it so that is why he doesn't do it... but I will do it anyways! :)

I asked him why if my main problem is to maintain a pregnancy, why I cant get preggo on my own?? He said, well very good question... there is no reason why!! So we have both unexplained infertility and unexplained m/cs....

I will be traveling to Ecuador for Memorial weekend and seeing the best Dr there... just for another opinion. Its way cheaper... about 3,500 for the whole thing... and he has great success rates.

So the plan is.... if I DO have the natural killer cells... IVF will be done at SIRM, if I dont have it maybe the option will be Ecuador. If I win the lotto it will be done at my RE! LOL We are planning on doing it on November.

I will keep searching for IVF trials in Miami, since those are my first options, but if not we have a plan.

I feel great not ttcing for a while and focusing on other things... Nov will be here in no time!!!

Thanks for everyone's support!! And thanks for all my blog comments, I feel so blessed to have such good friends!

GOD BLESS YOU ALL!!

SIRM appointment...

I finally had the telephone appointment with the SIRM institute. They had some special testing in immune disorders that most RE's don't have. I read a lot on their website and had a great feeling that they might be able to have an answer to my recurrent losses.

The Dr was really nice, we went over each of my cycles and through all the testing I have had done. He said my RE has basically tested for EVERYTHING except for what he thinks I have! He said there are just 2 tests that I haven't had done and in 1 I have all the characteristics, the other test he doubts I need it. He said most REs don't test these.

So what he thinks I have is .................. Nka - Natural Killer Cells...!! So, what's this? Basically those cells attack invading trophoblasts cells (root system of the embryo) as soon as it tries to gain attachment to the uterine wall. The attack the baby.

So what is the treatment?? Basically I will need to do IVF, and as soon as the eggs are retrieved he will do a Intralipid Infusion (composed of soybean oil, egg yolk phospholipis, glycerin and water). Before the only option was IVIG ( Intravenous gamma globulin) but now they have the infusion as an option, is 90% cheaper and as effective, plus I'm scared of blood transfusions. If I do get pregnant, he will need to do another infusion when I'm about 5-6 weeks (the infusion lasts 3-4 weeks). He said that when the baby is about 8 weeks he will be able to defend himself. How horrible is that I might have been attacking my own baby!! Of course is not my fault... but still..

The test costs $305, I will do it here but send the b/w through FedEx to Chicago, that is where the lab is. And it will be between 7-10 days to get the results. I will having this test done on June 1st, since that is when my Flex Plan kicks in because my insurance doesn't cover this.

He did say that all my and DH testing looks wonderful. My hormones are perfect, my uterus, ovaries, tubes, everything looks great. He also said that its great that the baby had no chromosomal abnormalities (2ND m/c) that means we have less chances of that happening. So I guess good news all in all.

I'm so happy to "probably" have an answer to this nightmare, but sad that I might never be able to conceive on my own. I'm scared of the results, if they are positive I will have this forever and if they are negative then I will be left with no answers. I guess only God knows why and what I have, and I just have to keep praying that he shows us the road he wants us to follow.

I have my post D&C appointment on Monday, we will hopefully get some results from the baby and I really want to hear what the RE thinks about all this.

Appt change..

I got a call from my RE this morning, my appointment has been changed to May 11th at 3:30, no biggie is just a day difference and the time is way better....

The nurse also mentioned that my RE wants me to have another SIS and a physical, so I have to call on CD1 to schedule that. I don't know why I'm having another SIS, but I guess I will know on my next appointment. Since my #s are not back to zero yet, well maybe today they are... she said it would be another 3-4 weeks... I already stopped spotting so I'm hoping I get it soon.

In the meantime I'm having a telephone appointment with SIRM (a fertility clinic in Dallas specialized in immune disorders, endometriosis, and multiple miscarriages) on May 5th at 2:45, its always good to have a second opinion.

Chromosomal testing and beta...

My follow up appointment is not until May 12th (4 weeks after the D&C)... since by that point we will have the results from the baby... and all the chromosomal testing that DH and I had done.

I had a beta yesterday and the nurse call me with the results today.... beta is back at 6! Ughhhh I really thought it was going to be zero!!! Now I have to wait another 2 weeks and have another one done....

Chromosomal testing is back....Drum roll please... DH AND I CHROMOSOMES ARE COMPLETELY NORMAL!!!!!!!!! I haven't talked to the Dr yet, but the nurse said everything came back perfect! I'm so relieved that we have no chromosomal issues, since those are BIG issues... but we are back to square one, UNEXPLAINED INFERTILITY AND UNEXPLAINED MISCARRIAGES!

I hope we can get some insight with the testing of the baby, but most likely we will not... I know what my Dr is going to say... IVF is the route! We cant afford it at the moment, and we are not ready either. I'm looking for a second opinion, just for a piece of mind, I really love my RE. And of course in the search for IVF trials... but in Florida!

We will not consider any other treatment until at least November unless a Miami IVF opens up. I will focus on studying and passing my CPA, working out, and enjoying life... It feels great not to TTC, I'm definitely not ready to try again for a while!

My 26th Bday!

I can't believe I'm 26 already, I know most people will say, Oh WOW you are so young! But I just feel like time is flying... I feel like I just turned 21.... definitely years pass by so quickly! I just want to STOP the time!

I always dreamed to have a baby by 25.... now I dream to have a baby, doesn't really matter WHEN! I just hope God has a LO in store for us!!

I had a great b-day, all my friends and family came to my house for dinner and cake!! I had a great time! I will post some pics soon!

Then on Thursday I went to Disney!! I have been there many times, but I just love it! I feel like a little kid!

On Friday we went to Animal Kingdom in the morning, MGM in the afternoon (just 2 hours) and Epcot at night!! I still cant believe we went to 3 parks in one day!! Definitely what I needed, my mind was completely off anything besides enjoying the rides and the parades! I didn't want to come back!

On Saturday we went to the mall and to Downtown Disney. Of course I went to the Disney store , MY FAVORITE! I just LOVE Disney!!

Now I'm back to work and studying... my 2nd CPA exam (Auditing) is on May 27th and I'm sooo behind!! It's so sad being back to reality....

My angel is now in heaven.....

My 3rd angel is now in heaven. I know probably s/he went a couple of weeks ago, but for me today is the day and I miss him/her so much.

The surgery went well... I was scheduled for 10am but it didn't start until 1pm, OMG I was starving!!!!!!!! I woke up shivering and with some cramping, they put me some morphine and I went to sleep again. I was discharged around 4:30pm and I'm now home!! I have no cramping and very small bleeding, I feel great! The anesthesiologist told me that she put me some special nauseous and some strong cramping meds, so I guess they are working great!!

As far as testing the baby, he said there was not much tissue but he thinks it was enough to be tested but couldn't guaranteed, so we will have to wait a couple more days to be sure, I really hope he can!! My HCG was on the way down as well 1690 today.

I will be home tomorrow as well... he said to rest tomorrow and no exercise nor intercourse for one week, after that I can go back to my normal life. He said he didn't want me to get preggo so soon, which I doubt it though... so to be careful. I'm really not even going to pay attention to any O signs or anything, I'm leaving it to God, I doubt I will be able to get preggo on my own so if by any chance it happens, its a miracle.

Thanks for all your prayers, they definitely worked since everything went as good as possible!! I'm glad that this is over and I'm ready for a new start!!

As scheduled...

I went in for another u/s at my RE today, and there was no change. Sac measuring 5 weeks, intact not collapsing, and no bleeding. Apparently the bleeding we saw last week reabsorbed. My cyst are way smaller too.

I also went to my OBGYN, even though I was convinced of the diagnostic, I wanted a second opinion. He send me for an u/s and the tech gave me a sheet saying "Intrauterine pregnancy, gestational sac seen, measuring 5 weeks, no yolk sac nor fetal pole seen". My OB said not to get discourage, that many people m/c many times without a reason and that he is so sure my time will come. I'm convinced on that as well... we just have to keep trying and praying.

I'm glad I went for a second opinion, I feel confident now that I'm making the right decision to go ahead with the D&C. I just hope now that there is enough tissue to test the baby, I really want to know what I was having. I'm pretty sure it was another boy, we will see!

So the surgery is tomorrow at 10am, I should be home in the afternoon and I will update as soon as I can.

Please pray for a smooth surgery, a fast recovery and to be able to test the baby!!!