October 6th...

After many months.... we are finally scheduled on October 6th to have our last 2 immune panels!!! I certainly hope we get some answers from all our losses... so please keep us in your prayers!!

One of the panels have to be done during the 2ww.. so we are hoping my body cooperates and I keep ovulating on target so that we don't need to move our testing day!!

The results should take about 1 week... and then we will meet with the new RE, Dr E, to talk about them and see what he recommends.

We are not thinking about a medicated cycle yet, maybe at the end of the year or beginning of next... we will have a better idea after the results come back!!

I passed the 3rd part of the CPA exam!

I haven't blogged in months!! Seems like every time I post is when I pass a section of the CPA exam!!! I guess that is what revolves my life at this time!

So after having a HARD time with this section, taxes & law, which for me was the hardest so far, I passed! I'm not sure how I did it, I certainly didn't study as much as I should have, the material was mostly new to me and the exam was extremely hard... and even with that I got my highest grade!! God certainly works miracle... anyhow I'm soo happy to be over one more part... now JUST ONE MORE PART TO GO AND I WILL BE A CPA!!! Financial Accounting is schedule for November 24th... so please keep those prayers coming, they have definitely worked!

I cant wait for it to be over, I want my life back!!! All I do is work, study, work, study... I definitely need some time for myself and Jorge! We are hoping to go on a 3-5 day cruise by the end of October, I cant wait!

We also have a mini vacation to Disney for 3 days on Oct 11-13 since its my brothers 12th b-day!! I love Disney, doesn't matter that I have been there SOOO many times, I still feel like a little kid every time I go!! So I'm very excited!!!

Riviera Maya --- Sept 2009

I guess a little late, but I forgot to mention we went to Riviera Maya (Playa del Carmen) in Mexico from September 10-13th!! We had a blast!!!

We got a great deal, with EVERYTHING included!! Soo much food and lots of drinks!! Margaritas and Mojitos were my favorites!!

The beach was beautiful and soo relaxing... we definitely want to go back!! We need to go for at least 6-7 days... ours was way too short!!

Here are some pics...

I passed the CPA part 2!!

Hi ladies!!!

Just wanted to share that I passed the second part of the CPA exam!! The audit portion!! I passed the first part - Business on Feb !! So next part is regulations/tax on August and then Financial Accounting on Nov... hopefully I will pass them all and finally be a CPA!!

About TTC... not trying not preventing... I have 1 panel of immune disorders on Friday at Quest... the other 2 panels have to be done at Millenova in Chicago and my insurance doesnt cover it, so we are looking at about $600 for those... that might be at the end of the month if we save up! Treatments are on hold until we have all the results back. I will also be having an SIS at my previous RE on Thursday it is a standard procedure after a D&C and my new RE wants me to have it too, so I will be bringing him the pictures. Im doing it at my previous RE since they take my insurance and I just need to pay a co-pay.

I will be going to Marco Island for the weekend!!!!!!!!! Sooo excited about that!!!!! Happy 4th of July everyone!!!!!!!!!!!

Dr E... second opinion...

Let me start by saying that Dr E was my first pick when we decided we wanted to see an RE. Unfortunately he does not take my insurance. My OB, which I love, works in the 2nd floor and Dr E is in the 4th floor, so of course they referred me to him. As I said, they didn't take my insurance so we went ahead with our second pick, Dr O. I do love my RE, but it got to a point were he didn't want to try anything new, nor do more testings ... he wanted to go straight to IVF, which for us it isn't an option yet.

A friend of mine goes to Dr E. and she had told me about an IVF trial coming, so she suggested to at least have a consultation with them so that I would be in their records once the trial opens up. (They expect the trial to open late 2009 or beginning of 2010). So I gave them a call, and the cost for the consultation was $295, too much for us now. So I went ahead and explained her my situation, and she said "OH for second opinions its free! "

We had our consultation yesterday, we went over all my history and he reviewed all my results except for the NKA results since I was having a hard time collecting them from SIRM. I actually got my results from the lab today and fax them over.

Here is a summary of the appointment:

Positive:
- He said my ovaries, uterus, tubes, everything looks healthy
- I stimulate great with the meds, he said I had a high chance of multiples and that he would have cancelled some of my cycles!
- My estrogen, progesterone, fsh, etc looks great
- I'm still young and lots of chances of being a mommy

Negative:
- We still don't have an answer to why I keep m/c.

He said he disagreed on why we used injectables to soon, it was not worth it and more a risk of multiples. He said why not try Femara first. He believes I have an immune problem and he would like me to do some more testing on that. He will decide what as soon as he reviews my NKA results. He thinks if IUI worked, why try IVF, he said I shouldn't go on that route yet, there are still other options before that.

I had an u/s done, where he said everything looked perfect and guess what... I OED FROM BOTH OVARIES WITHOUT MEDS! He was surprised !!! Definitely ovulating is not a problem! My lining looked great, and everything else was perfect. I do have a cyst from one of the eggies, he wants to see me on CD3 to make sure is gone.

After we do the testing on the immune problems, he wants us to do a FEMARA+IUI cycle. My DH is so ready for all this but I'm certainly not.

I was already set to the idea of no more treatments for a while, I'm just not ready to do this again, at least not yet. Not ready for a BFN, not ready for another m/c. But the Dr believes we shouldn't loose more time... what to do?

Any advise is more than welcome!! I don't know what to do!! What would you do if you were me?? Keep in mind its about 1,200 per cycle for which I will need to empty my 401K (I have about 2,500 though since the rest I took it as a loan last year).

NKA cell results...

Are NEGATIVE!! I don't know if I'm happy or if I want to cry, so many mixed emotions at this time!! I'm glad I don't have it, but I'm back to limbo!!

So I talked to the SIRM Dr... Dr W. and he said we have one last test to do, even though there is only a 5% chance of us having it. The test is called DQ alpha match, and he said it has to do with the similarities between my husband and I... genetic similarities. He said that if we do test positive, we will most likely need a surrogate, of course this is devastating news, but I feel that we don't have that. I'm not sure about the cost yet, but we most likely don't do it... I just can't afford any more testing at this point. I will call his nurse tomorrow and ask about the details on the testing and the cost.

He also thinks I might have an egg quality problem, even though my FSH level is great and everything has reveal I have normal eggs. My RE believes the same, so maybe that is what our problem is.

We are having our third opinion with Dr E next week, on June 16th... we will see what he has to say.

TTC might be on hold even longer... I'm just not ready to do anything and fail again... I guess the results hit me harder than I thought... but as usual we need to move forward...

I hope a trial opens up, then we can try without the financial issues involved, and then if it doesn't work... we can make a wiser decision on what to do.

Please pray that God leads us to the path we need to follow and to keep giving us the strength that we need during this journey.

Memorial Day trip...

I was born in Guayaquil, Ecuador and move to Miami when I finished high school at 17 in 2001. The first years after I moved I traveled a lot to Ecuador, I just missed it so much. Well 2006 was the last time I went! Now every time I got back, I just want to come back!!! I just cant imagine myself living there anymore...

On May 23rd was my SIL's daughter baptism and I'm her Godmother!! So a great excuse to go back go Guayaquil. My best friends in high school were 7 (I had different groups from different schools, but this was my main group). Well 3 live here in Miami, 1 in LA, and 3 in Guayaquil. So I had a great time talking and hanging out with them; its incredible how years pass and our friendship is still the same!!

I went to the dentist, I did my hair, went to a spa; I basically had a beauty day! I also went to the best RE in Guayaquil, Dr B. Dr B works with Dr E here in Miami, not the one I go to since he doesn't take my insurance, but a great Dr! He went through my history and told me I suffer from secondary infertility, basically my main problem is not to get pregnant but to maintain the pregnancy. He run some FSH, estrogen, progesterone, etc b/w and everything came back perfect.

The first thing Dr B asked me was about the NKA b/w, he couldn't understand why my RE didn't do it, he said it was a main thing and most likely my problem. So now I have 2 Drs, the SIRM Dr and Dr B thinking that NKA is the reason for my losses. I'm kind of upset that I didn't look for all of this before... I could have used my last medicated cycle differently... but past cannot be change so I need to look forward. I had the b/w done on Tuesday and I should get the results next week.

I'm feeling great during this TTC break.... for some reason NOW I don't want any kids... not sure if it is a self defense mechanism from all the suffering or if I'm starting to realize that it might not happen... anyhow I'm good with what I'm doing right now and not ready to be pregnant! How weird is that after all the trying? Of course if God grants us a miracle he/she will be more than welcome!! But I'm not ready for any treatment or trying... I want to continue studying, exercising, saving and paying off all my debt, I will like to be almost debt free before getting preggo.

I feel happy, its incredible how time heals everything!! I have no regrets, no guilty feelings, no more sadness for not having a baby, I feel happy with all that I have! God has definitely given me more than I deserve!

I can't thank everyone enough for all the support you have given me! It is definitely God, DH, family and friends that helped me get through this journey and help me keep my sanity!

Love you!